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Saturday, March 31, 2012

tahukah kamu??

Bismillahi rahman nirrahim....

alhamdulillah....dpt gak update lagi~
hurm..mklumlah..bosan2 nie..tmbah2 xda bnde nak wat

cop! nak bgtahu...sori lah ea,,bhsa sya mix sikit...
sbh ada,smnjung ada..eng ada..
~sori..morie~
(spa xbrkenan...xperlah)



kali nie...sya nak ckp psal
"tahukah kamu??"
siapa kamu tu??
(spa2 jer lah ea..:)

kamu...hnya kamu yg tahu kamu...hnya Allah juga yg tahu kamu...
hati kamu...aq xtahu...mungkin kesalahan aq bila salah menafsir kamu
mungkin salahku......
aq mndapat keyakinan dariNya..
tentang kamu...
huh...ia luar dr kebiasaan ku...aq kuatkan hatiku..ku perteguhkan imanku...
aq mencari Dia sebelum kamu...aq perlahan2 mencorak langkah...aq brdiam dari semua..
mulanya...kekok utk aq percaya...kurniaan itu Dia yg bagitnpa kemahuanku
ia mekar dalam diriku susah ku delete aq cuba menutupi dari semua
namun
semua sia2..makin ku tutupi makin aq diulit keresahan aq brjumpa dgn Dia
prtma kali dalam solat istikhrahku aq brmunajat kepada Dia yg satu
memohon prlindungan dari syaitan trkutuk xingin diri ini dicemari
aq merintih semahu2nya

Dia Maha Penyayang syukran Allah
kau selitkan kedamaian dihati ini
tatkala aq memerlukan Mu
engkau tnjuk,engkaw perlihatkan aq gerak geri kamu
mungkin
bisa aq jadikan jawapan...
"mungkin"

aq diduga bila Dia mentakdirkan segalanya brputar belit
persoalan2 yg hampir terungkai  kini bertukar umpama belitan benang2 yg sukar dirungkai

aq kembali ragu...aq kembali keliru aq terima dgn tenang jika kamu mahu seperti itu
aq mengiyakan shaja walaupun kamu menidakkan ia aq gagahkan hati ini redha dgn ketentuan itu

aq kembali menjumpai pemilik diri ini
ALLAH...
hari ini aq datang kepadaMU
bantu aq ya Allah
di saat aq kusut
engkau kurniakan lah aq ketenangan
agar aq dapat rasai kasih sayangMU
yg xpernah habis

tahukah kamu....aq sudah pun melepaskan kamu....

~melepaskan memang sukar...namun ingatlah...melepaskan itu adalah yag terbaik~


Tuesday, March 27, 2012

kembali ke gagang~




sebagaimana manusia Allah ciptakan dan diturunkan mereka(manusia) ke bumi ini...begitulah diri ini...yang kini berada dalam kesenangan dunia...(astghfirullah halazim)

"wahai diri...jgnlah kaw leka dengan dunia ini...sungguh dunia ini tempat permainan sementara"
(pesanan buat diriku~shbatku~)




dunia tu
just temporary,,akhirat yg kekal abadi
surah al-Isra:ayat 21
"dan kehidupan akhirat lebih tinggi darjatnyadan lebih besar keutamaanya"


okei..back to the story...
today ill be leave my lovely(xlah love sgt pon~ngee~)
UITM PUNCAK ALAM
xsngka dulu wktu nak gi sini..pnyer la bgai nak rak xnak prgi...sbb jauh la,mls la nak gi smnnjg
tup2...msuk gak....and pelik bin ajaibnya...its hard pulak tue nak tngglkan bilik trsyang tadi~
weii....lumrah dunia~
teringat cerita "JUTAWAN FAKIR"
saifUl apek ada ckp:
"inilah dunia...bila kita ada,xdihrgai...bila kita xda baru sibuk mencari2"

huhu~
mungkin nielah yg Allah nak tnjukkan dan buktikan pda aq....
cer kita sma2 belek surah (al-Baqarah,ayt 216)
"blh jadi kamu xmenyenangi ssuatu,pdahal ia baik utk kamu
dan blh jadi kmu mnyukai ssuatu pdahal itu xbaik utk kamu. sungguh Allah mngetahui sdg kamu
xmngetahui"

klau aq nak rfresh back my mind...bnyk dah aq tmpuh b4 jejakkn kaki ke bumi sngor nie

den barulah Allah uji aq nie,b4 proceed....
can u just flip over the same surah(2:214)
"ataukah kmu mngira kmu akanmsuk Jannah pdhal blom ada ujian dtg kpdmu....."
antara ujian2 ku:
  1. yes! dpat UNIMAS! kos:asasi prubatan(melompat keHAPPIAN sya..^^)
  2. "TAHNIAH..anda terpilih utk mnjadi pelajar KML(mtrik labuan) 11/12"
  3. "TAHNIAH..dpt  sclarship MARA 11/12 di UITM Puncak Alam,
  4. kos:asasi prgigian@asasi sains


ok...that is! 3 pnggilan yg mmrlukan aq wat kptsn yg sgt cerdik~
malang lagi kesian....aq lngsung xamik pluang jmpa dengan kekasih hati,Allah dlm sujud istikharah ku.....utk aq memnta pdanya kkuatan dn kyakinan dlm membuat kptsn tue....aiseh!
sungguh aq rugi....rugi...dan rugi.....
but insyaAllah for the fture,i'll be make dffrnces!

yah~bu~dua org yg pnting dlm hidupku....alhmdulillah mrekalah mmbntu aq sikit2 dlm
mlncrkan prgerkan otakku utk brfikir sedalam2nya.....thanx yah~bu~

den....lastly! i'd made my own decisions...stelah bnyk pndpt2 drpd kaum kerabat,shbt2
i come with a decision.....whereby i chose to take mara schlar~UITM PALAM~Selangor~


(nie lah uitm palam tyme hujan,view from my dorm~)



part yg pling2 xsuka adalah scene prpisahan mak dan anak cumil nie(aq la...^^)

tapi...teringat pulak kisah Rasulullah s.a.w,,
tguk dlm surah Taubah,ayt40:
sahabat baginda berkata kpd Muhammad,"jgnlah kamu bersedih,sesungguhnya Allah bersama
kita". maka Allah memberikan ketenangan kepdnya(Muhammad).......

alhmdulillah semua dpt diatasi~

now,after 2 sem i'd through with many2 problems,sharing,tests,exams,quizes,lctrrs,tutorials....
finally it end! xsngka masa yg Allah bg...dah habis~ Syukur semua brjln smoothly even smtimes...trsngkut gak kan....lumrah dunia....Allah nak bg ujian...biasa lah tu

now...im spnding my xtra days here-PALAM-CHERAS b4 going back
sya akan kembali ke gagang~
klau jodoh xkemana...insyaAllah sya mai lagi sini

utk semua kwn2,akhwat2,shbt2,miss2 and madam2,ustz,ustzah....dan sesiapa yg xtersebut...thanx a lot giving me strength to stand here...properly...insyaAllah


~insyaALLAH bertemu kita kerana Allah,berpisah jua kerana Allah~

freedom-maher zain


LIRIK LAGU FREEDOM-MAHER ZAIN

Gathered here with my family
…My neighbours and my friends
Standing firm together against oppression holding hands
It doesn’t matter where you’re from
Or if you’re young, old, WOMAN or man
We’re here for the same reason; we want to take back our land

Oh God, thank you
For giving us the strength to hold on
And now we’re here together

Calling you for freedom, freedom
We know you can hear our call, ooh NO
We’re calling for freedom, fighting for freedom
We know you won’t let us fall, oh NO
We know you’re here with us

No more being prisoners in our homes
No more being afraid to talk
Our dream is just to be free, just to be free
Now when we’ve TAKEN our first step
Towards a life of complete freedom
We can see our dream getting closer and closer, we’re almost there

Oh God, thank you
For giving us the strength to hold on
And now we’re here together

Calling you for freedom, freedom
We know you can hear our call, ooh NO
We’re calling for freedom, fighting for freedom
We know you won’t let us fall, oh NO
We know you’re here with us

I can feel the pride in the air
And it makes me strong to see everyone
Standing together holding hands in unity
Shouting out LOUDLY demanding their right for freedom
This is it and we’re not backing OUT
Oh God we know you hear our call

And we’re calling you for freedom, freedom
We know you can hear our call ooh NO
We’re calling for freedom, calling for freedom
We know you won’t let us fall oh NO
We know you’re here with


*love this song-freedom for PALESTINA,SYRIA,AFGHANISTAN!!!

"If you kill me today, I will die. But us, Muslims, will have revolution in this generation, to the next generation, to next generation and to the next generation"
~Omar Mokhtar~
(Libya General)


"konvokesyen bidaDARI duniA 2012" (part 1)


alhamdulillah tercatat juga namaku-Nooraisyikeen Mansoor-
untk mnjdi slh satu pserta konv0 nie....huhu bukan senng nak trpilih weeii..

"jika kamu tidak mengisi masa lapang kamu dengan kebaikan,
ia akan diisi dengan perkara keburukan...begitulah sebaliknya"

so...memng la semua buzy nak pegi kuar ngan ousmate,classmate,pakwee,roomate..
but the thing is that..you should concern about your timetry to fill it up with something good
(jgn terasa tau...just nak share n ingat2 kan diri sendiri dan semua)

jom refresh back our mind with SURAH AL-ASR:




ok...lets begin
cmna aq leh trpilih ea? pdahal,,yg pegi tu kbnyakan...no...semua stdnt dgree uitm...
cmnie crita dia:

mlm freedom bg X-asasi uitm palam tu..snggap jap ke rumah MISS .....,
lpstu aq brkelah la kat
rumah MISS.....,
mISS: syikeen,kamu balik bila?
me: rabu miss..npa?
miss: nak xjoin konvokesyen kat ptrjya?
me: konvo? bila?
miss: esok(sabtu)..konvokesye
n bidadari dunia....
me:huhu...blh2 tapi itu utk apa miss?
miss: dia mcm crmah..bnyk lah pnceramah,dr muhaya,ustzh bahiya,wardina,fatimah syarha
ramai lah lagi....event nie start pkl 9am-10 pm....utk hari ahad dan sbtu
me: waa...lmanya...hurm..(pdhal plan nak tido esok..hihi,tringat kata2 hikmah kat atas tu....)
hurm...oke lah miss...tp sya nak ajak kwn,blh? tkot la sorg2 budak asasi...
miss:blh jer...tpi sorg jer la...coz tkot
xda dah tiket available...
me: kena byar?
miss: xla,,,nie uitm sponsor...esok kmp
ul kat......pkl 6.15 pg
me: huhu....awal giler...ngee~

esok pagi tu...gerak lah ke picc...huhu
alhmdulillah hajat nak ke ptrya Allah kabulkan...
xsngka mnjejakkan kaki ke putrajya tu sbb PROGRM MJLIS ILMU,,,


(nie lah PICC-cntik kan...)

hurm...smpai tu memang teruja meskipun mata bengkak(tidor je dlm bas)
alhmdulillah sepnjang permulaan hari memang best,,,
apa yg nak sya share kat sini....
actually tntang pemuda yg muda...lagi mantap semangatnya!

siapa????~

CEO ILUVISLAM.COM
Encik Mohd Nurul Imran Koyube
nie serba sedikit yg sy thu la psal dia....
dia nie pemuda brumur 25 thun,da brtunang(tu yg penting)
stdent yg prnh stdy over the sea...us xslap
dya tbuhkan iluvislam.com pd thun 2006 kat US.
apa yg sy sgt2 kagum psl org nie adalah
dia seorang yg cntakan ISLAM
ucapan alu2an dia ari tu...he's started with quran whereby he read the verses from QURAN
so...impressed!
lepas tu cara dia mnyampaikan ucapan tu..dgn semangatnya....fuh!
he tried to raise the spirits among us as muslimah(bidadari dunia)
to be not just an angel at the world but also for ukhrawi and angel at JaNNAH...
insyaAllah :)
antara pesan2 yg smpat sya rakamkan dibuku tulis terCOMEL la sgt....^_^
  • jgn pernah mengeluh sbb anda diciptakan = wanita
  • jadilah muslimah yg SUPERB!
  • expand up your ability!
  • try to say this to yourself: لقد كنت كبيرا (SAYA MEMANG HEBAT)
  • jgn pernah takut untuk melakukan sesuatu luar kemampuan
  • and he said:
"LIfe is not just for you....but liFE also is for the ummah!"
(be concern about them...instead of urself)

he also share about how actually to be happy,you want to know how?

"by forgiving people"

klau kita perasaan tips tu sbnrnya Nabi s.a.w yg amalkan...
so...kita sebagai umat baginda perlu lah amalkan
insyaAllah...kebaikan akan diperolehi :)


so that all for part first nie...insyaAllah i'll be update for another parts....
~syukran jazakallah huhairan~

Monday, March 26, 2012

uhubbukifillah ya ukhti FAtin Nabihan~


perpisahan itu sangatlah perit~ yup,sya stuju.....susah,perit,sedih.....tu lah perasaan yg common brlaku bila sebut psal "perpisahan"
  • *siapa snggup berpisah dgn ibubapa buat selama2nya??!
  • *siapa sanggup utk brpisah dgn suami pujaan hati....??!
  • *dan...siapa snggup utk brpisah dgn kawan rapat dia??!
mesti ada yg jawab "xsnggup!", ada gak...brperasaan "biase jer...(muka selamba)"...dan mcm2 lagi jwpan...

tapi itulah lumrah dunia....:kita bertemu,kita berpisah....brtemu dan berpisah adalah psangan yg sgt sinonim....semua thu Allah ciptakan semua benda kat dunia nie brpasang2an...right?
ingat tak ayat apa??

"dan di antara tanda2 kebesaran-Nya ialah menciptakan pasangan2 untukmu dari jenismu sendiri,agar kamu cenderung dan merasa tenteram kepadanya, dan Dia menjadikan diantara kamu rasa kasih dan sayang." (Ar-Rum:21)

so...terang lagi bersuluh yg kita nie memang brpasang2an....same goes to "brtemu,brpisah".

~dear ukhti Fatin Nabihan~


(wktu nie aq fikir psal kau kat ptrjya nie)

aq jumpa dirimu di tempat yg brnama UITM PUNCAK ALAM,,,

still aq ingat...first tyme aq jumpa dirimu....SUBHAnALLAH! "cantiknya dia",bisik hati aq....

(jgn prsan lebih tau atin ^_^)

tapi...mmndgkan -ve thinking aq psl prmpuan cntik mnyekat ku utk brta'aruf

dgnmu(bekenalan)

so...aq pndamkan jer feeling tu....tapi Allah nie prncangan Dia,kita xtahu...

Allah thu hati aq....so dia rncngkan juga utk aq spy dpt kenal ngan kaw....

ingat x...tyme kak fasi sruh budak schalar mara brkumpul kat depan tyme suma

budak2 asasi kmpul kat rsu...kat situ la bru aq dpt kenal engkaw...

memng mula2..segan lah nak bta'aruf ngan geng mara nie...mklumlah aq bdak SabaH BHa,,,

so...aq xla sgt2 suka ngan enviroment tyme tu,,

tapi...kita berkenalan gak tyme tu"nama sya FATIN NABIHAN"

cewaah...nama...glamor la tu!^^,

tpi..mndgkan aq fail utk ingt nma org.aq sering lupa nma engkaw,,,,smpailah bila kita

kena bagi group! "A3??" aduii....aq tguk list name utk group A3 tu......

"hah??! nooraisyikeen mansoor,......(bla2)....FATIN NABIHAN MOHD FADZIL??!"

Allah....aq sekelas ngan dia??! aduii...xnak la aq...(nie aq ckp kat hati)haha

akhirnya...Allah rncang utk aq dan kaw sekelas...

ok...lets start...korek minda nie nak ingat tentang engkau ni....sikit jer tau,xbnyk la
yg aq ingat,,,haha
  1. kaw selalu wat aq trtunggu2 kat bawah....bila aq tepon..."jap,tgh bersiap..."thu x..actually i xsuka tnggu org nie...but for u...i mde it! huhu
  2. kaw slalu wat muka jelek! haha~muka mnja....nyampah pulak...hihi~
  3. kaw selalu tersenyum,,,,ngee,trgoda i...haha~comel,kiut "bha"
  4. kaw selalu pakai pakain comel...tu yg wat aq rsa mcm...xnak jln ngan kaw...
  5. kaw selalu gak nasihat aq...bntu aq....tolong aq.....huhu...syukran ya ukhti!
  6. slalu dgr kaw celoteh2,kadang tu suka sgt cakap...~pening aq..haha
  7. kekemasan penting,bkn luaran jer @ dalaman....prsekitaran pn mesti jugak taw
  8. owh ya...kaw pernah mraj0k ngan aq,marah aq...sedih ngan aq...kcewa dgn aq....sori...
  9. kaw suka pink! (eyuuww)
huhu....tu jer lah yg aq ingat psal kaw....klaw jln2 sma2 tu bnyak la...penat nak tulis...hihi
xde la...yg aq ingat,tyme kita pegi DUSUN ECO RESORT,,,pegi ULU YAM...
hurm,best kan tyme tu..huhu...

ya ukhti Fatin Nabihan~
bnyak benda nak ckp lagi...tp "Cakap"jer...bukan "tuliS"
huhu.....nie antara wasiat2@nasihat2 aq buatmu malah untukku juga......
tguk tafsi juga tau...tafsir pink kaw tu....^_^
  • first,ingatlah Allah..jgalah Allah....cer belek surah 59,ayat 19..
  • selawat pda Rasulullah s.a.w,surah 33:56
  • bina iman kita....sbb iman nie lah tunjang diri sbnrya...jika rapuh,rapuhla seluruhnya
  • tmbah amalan2 ibadah kita, cer belek surah 7,ayat 8 & 9
  • kejarlah dunia dan akhirat....sebab? cer tinguk surah 17,ayat 18-21, pilih...nak jd org yg kejar dunia jer,kejar akhirat jer...or kejar both...
  • jgn prnah brputus asa...tapi brsyukurlah.... tguk surah yusuf plak,ayat87


  • jgn sedih2 tau klaw ada msalah...tapi...mengadu pada Allah....
  • zikir..ubat penenag hati~tguk surah TAha,ayat 130
  • bersabarlah shabatku sabar tu senjata muslimah
  • jadilah permata MAHAl (aq pon nak jd cmni),surah 24:30,dan surah 33:59
  • jom capai MARDADILLAH/redha Allah ^_^

insyaAllah tu jer kot yg aq nak kongsi kat kaw....hihi..sorilah klaw xbest...aq kongsi sekadar yang aq mampu...ilmu kena share...sbb Allah tu lah pemilik segala ilmu....
akhir kata,,,
dengan nama Allah yg Maha Pengasih,Maha Penyayang
saya NOORAISYIKEEN MANSOOR @ QIQIN,
mengatakan bahawa...
saya SAYANG SANGAT SANGAT SANGAT dengan FATIN NABIHAN M.FADZIL

(xsempat peluk kali trakhir dgnmu...xper,,,hrap akan ada msanya nnti)

(aq dan atin)

syukran kerana jadi shabat sya utk kurang sthun jngka masanya....syukran ya ukhti,,,
klaw btul xda jodoh kita jmpa lepas nie....
yakinlah....Allah akan jumpakan kita dekat JANNAh-Nya nanti....
insyaALLAH


FATIN NABIHAN......uhibbukifillah....

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

rindu...ya....aq rindu!!



after solat asar

"exam....exam...exam.....

semua sibuk study....revise buku..lctrr notes,buka ilearn..past year questions...
im not feed up,but....there're too mny things that i am thinking now....
sbgai sorg muslim...yeah,kita ada dua mtlamat pnciptaaan:
1-beribadah kepada Tuhan(yakni Allah S.W.T)
2-memakmurkan bumi dgn mnggalas tnggungjawab sbgai khalifah

FIRMAN ALLAH:

"dan ingatlah Aku tidak menciptakan jin dan manusia melainkan untuk mereka menyembah dan beribadah kepadaKu" (az Zariyat:56)


aq mula memandang roomate yg tgh study bio(kot) smbil dgr lagu~

teringat pula berita2 yg aq baca,aq dgar...tntang......SYRIA.
ada yg tahu dan xtahu tntg SYRIA.....now,Muslim in Syria are fghting with the violence that created by their own president!
tragis.....bila dgr cara org2 MUSLIM(mostly) be treated like an animal,kena rogol...sembelih!
ya Allah!! aq rsa sngguh geram! ingin shaja aq trbang ke sna......bunuh mereka sendiri dgn tgnku....tp apa dayaku?? jika aq sorg jak gerak.......apa akan jadi?! ofkos aq akan tumbaang disna!


"WHRE'RE THE OTHER MUSLIMS????!!"
aq mula memejamkan mata rapat....rapat,...
andai esok datangnya "WAQIAH"...KEBANGKITAN seluruh umat mnusia......
bilamana kita mula dihisab,,tetiba.........
"ya Allah....dia telah melupakanku sebagai saudaranya bilamana dia tidak mnghulurkan bantuan kepadaku tatkala aku berjuang utk agamaMu",berkata salah sorg hamba Allah yg syahid ketika di Syria......
lantas...cubalah kita fikir balik....adakh anda snggup utk memikul hukuman Allah dsbbkn kita alpa drpd mnghulurkn bntuan kpd saudara Muslim kita??! (air mata menitis.....)

"ya Allah.....bntulah kami dlm dakwahMu menyeru manusia kearah cahayaMu,bntulah kami juga untuk membantu saudara Muslim kami yg lainnya".bisik hati kecil ini.

aq hnya mampu baring memjamkan mata...ingin lari dari kesibukan duniawi ini.....
RASULULLAH....................
susunan nama itu terukir di ruang mindaku,,,lantas ku ingati segala permulaan sejarah baginda S.A.W yg prnah ku baca dlm buku "Siti Khadijah r.a",,,
penat lelah bginda mnyampaikan dakwah,xhenti2...meskipun bnyak hlangan yg sering menguji......tetap sabar,tabah,ikhlas baginda dlm jalan dakwah itu......







AKU????
baru sikit diuji....kadang diam,kadang..........malunya aq dgn Allah dan Rasul.....

berlegar pula masalah umat di ruang fikiran.....
msalah umat! yah...telalu byak....sedih! sedih! sedih!
persaoaln ini kemudian muncul....."kalau Rasulullah ada....bgaimana???"
titisan air mata kemudian membasahi wajahku yg kering dari wudhuk tadi....
"adakah Baginda akan sedih? aq xsnggup lihat titisan airmata bginda jatuh dari matanya.....namun...jauh disudut hati kecil ku myakinkan bhawa,Rasulullah s.a.w sedang gembira...kenpa? sbb ada warisNya menemani kita.....
-alQuran dan Sunnah
itulah teman kita sebenarnya wahai sahabatku.....ingatlah bhawa kita nie lah sbenarnya yg mewarisi.
lanats ku bangun mengambil tafsir kesayanganku.....ku belek2 helaian demi helaian...tnpa aq kthui ayat mna aq nak rujuk,tpi Allah itu Maha Mengetahui....Dialah menunjukkan aq jalan,lntas trjumpa ayat nie:
"Dia(Allah) brfirman:"Kami akan menguatkan engkau(membantumu)dgn saudaramu,dan Kami akan berikan kpdmu berdua kekuasaan yg besar,maka mereka tidak akan dapat mncapaimu(mngalahkanmu);maka berangkatlah kamu dgn membawa mukjizat Kami,kamu berdua dan orang yg mengikuti kamu yang akan menang" (al-Qasas:35)

bila baca ayat tue...hurm,btul....org yg menolong agama Allah nie akan menang jua akhirnya....walaupun lambat. Aku prcaya bhawasanya saudara2 kami yg sedang menghadapi kesulitan,xkira sbb perang atau apa2 pun...jika mereka di jalan Allah....akn menang jua.....akhirnya ayat nie seikit sebnyak mententeramkan kalbu dan otak ku yg kusut~






ingatlah: jika kita sentiasa brbuat baik sesama Muslim/tidak...ukhuwah itu akan trbina dgn indahNya.....jom kita bina ukhuwah...dan berdoa juga utk saudara2 di Syria mhupun di palestin...:)
insyaAllah
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jihad itu indah....<3

Friday, March 9, 2012

Thanx dad!





a baby was born on that day. her tears was heard by her father outside the delivery room. Alhamdulillah....syukran Allah!,her father then entered the room after the doctor said his baby had birth.


"ALLAHUAKBAR...ALLAHUAKBAR.....(the father recite the azan at the baby's ear)....the mother was fall asleep. perhaps she was so tired when the delivery process was on going. the baby then sent to the baby's room. while the father followed the nurse who take the baby to the baby's room.
"my daughter....hope you'll be a good muslimah in the future,amin..."
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8 years later....

"mum....i want this cloth!! its beautiful and suit for me....",said me while showing the purple dress to my mum....
"honey,i want you to wear hijab...ok? not dress....",
"huh...? hijab? what is that?",im asked without any ideas what is hijab look like...
"hijab is smthink that a women or a girl wear to cover her hair....",explained my mother.
"why shold we cover our hair? dont we see its horrible and i think...its not beautiful....."
my mum smiled to me...
"so...im not beautiful to wear this hijab...?"
"of course you are the most beautiful women that i ever see....(^^)",honestly i said that to my mum...
"so....if you want to look pretty like me....why should you try to wear it. dont worry honey,i'll get the most beautiful hijab for you....moreover,Allah had told us to wear hijab for the women"
"why man are not?"
"because....women are special..^^"



finally...i agreed. even actually....i dont like it at all!
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at school

for the first time i wore hijab to school! so embrassing...but because of my mum told me to practice wearing this stuff....yeah...i'd try to weat it.
"hey girl...why you wearing this stuff?? dont you feel its hot?",
hurm...i cant answer them...:(

at home

"mummy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" i was crying...and crying...and crying.....today was so horrible! everybody was comment on me just because of this hijab! argh!!!
"honey...why you're crying??" asked my mum.
i told everythig about what happened at school,,about my classmates that comment about me wearing the hijab.
"oo...perhaps they're jelous on you...." said mum.
"why they must jelous on me? im not wearing new bag or shoes...,im wearing this hijab!"
"honey....did you remeber what i've told you last night?"
refreshed my mind.....recalled back what my mum told me last night....then......
"yeah! i rmbered! Allah loves people who wearing hijab right??"
"good girl. its true...Allah loves those who followed what he told us to do...for example...He want the girl to cover their hair for instance...thus,should we wearing the the lid of the periuk...or hijab?? i dont mind if you want to wear it....hihi"
"that's right mum...my friends jelous on me because Allah loves me more than others...."
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10 years later

im 18th now...being a teenage is fun. but i remebered each words that my father written special for me...
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assalamualaikum.....

first of all...im sorry...i cant raised you until you've become an adult that i can be proud of. im sorry i cant be with you when you're happy with your result...im sorry i cant hear your tears when you're sad and have a problem. but believe me,i always be with you....in bottom of your heart.

dear,
i know...you're questioning yourself...why im not here with you...besides you....sharing stories with you....girl,perhaps we'll see each other in JANNAh..insyaAllah. i hope you'll be strong enough to make your own way through this life... my dear,remebered that...Allah never let us down...becaouse what?? becAUSe He loves us very much. build up your iman...so that you'll not be easy be influenced by the world. our last destination is akhirat..not here.

dear,
i know your mother must told you to wear hijab right?

"And tell the believing women to lower their gaze (from looking at forbidden things), and protect their private parts (from illegal sexual acts, etc.) and not to show off their adornment except only that which is apparent (like palms of hands or one eye or both eyes for necessity to see the way, or outer dress like veil, gloves, head-cover, apron, etc.), and to draw their veils all over Juyubihinna (i.e. their bodies, faces, necks and bosoms, etc.) and not to reveal their adornment except to their husbands, their fathers, their husbands fathers, their sons, their husbands sons, their brothers or their brothers sons, or their sisters sons, or their (Muslim) women (i.e. their sisters in Islam), or the (female) slaves whom their right hands possess, or old male servants who lack vigour, or small children who have no sense of the shame of sex. And let them not stamp their feet so as to reveal what they hide of their adornment. And all of you beg Allah to forgive you all, O believers, that you may be successful"
(Nur:31)

clear right? women is most special person....because they were given special duty(responsibility) to cover themselves. whoever do what is stated...they'll get the honour and pahala from Him,,insyaAllah...you'll be the one as well as your mother.

dear,
when you do something,be sincere...Allah loves whoever do something kind towards other sincerely. and one think that you should know my daughter....shaitan scared towards person who do somthink sincerely.


"Those who believe fight in the cause of Allah , and those who disbelieve fight in the cause of Taghut. So fight against the allies of Satan. Indeed, the plot of Satan has ever been weak"
(Nisa:76)

dear,
chase ukhrawi...not duniawi. the world is temporary compared to akhirat....lastly,i would say that,,,i always pray to Allah that you'll be guide with Hidayah....and be safe duniawi and ukhrawi.....your heart is mine.....
always loving you,
AYAH <3
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now,i know why my mum told me to wear hijab, not only to wear it...but actually...she want me to understand.....ALLAH.....RASUL....ISLAM......

HIJAB...is not just a hijab.....but....hijab actually made me realise...i should concerned about my life.....the way Islam thought us about life....depending the only one....our creator ALLAH S.W.T. the way of islam developed....is due to His Massenger, RASULULLAH sallahu alaihi wassalam....

syukran Allah....now im realize...who am i.......dad......love you!!!

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that night after ISya' prayer,,

"mum...why dont you give me the letter early?"
"your father told me to give you when you're 18th"
"hurm....:( mum....may i asked somethink?"

"why dad said that my heart is mine??"

i can see tears at her eyes....she keep silent. then she said that:

"when you're born...doctor said you've heart disease whereby the chance for you to live is lower... Doctor told us the only way to safe you,we 've to find a donor. we've tried to find donor..unfortunately we failed. one day,your father went outstation. Allah loves him more than we do. He got involved in an accident. i only meet him before the operation begin. He told me that,if somethink happen to him, he want his heart to be transfered to you........."

my mum then crying....i was shocked for a while....silent.

its a big sacrifie that my dad do for me....i know,my dad doesnt want us to be sad...
i told to my mum....."Dad gives me to you,,,to protect you,,,to take care of you mum...."
we're hugged each other.

that night...we prayed for my late father......




syukran Ayah...........see u at JANNAH....insyaAllah! amiin....

penulis:pencariIlahi

Monday, March 5, 2012

exam....OMG!


alhamdulillah....test 2 berjaya ditempuhi dengan suksesnya!

hurm....just nak share benda yg separa penting tntg exam nie....

ana....hurm...sbnrny xla stdy hard as well as someelse...but...ana stdy guna cara stdy smart....


hurm...mmng org familiar psl nie "dont stdy hard..but stdy smart!"..am i right??
ok...ana nak share xperience tntg bnde nie...
its true! stdy smart is more effective compared to stdy hard....y?
oke...let us see....
first! KELEBIHAN SETIAP ORANG BERBEZA. . .
xsemua org dikurniakan kelebihan yg tinggi umpama setinggi langit...dan xsemua org memiliki akal serendah2 lautan.....ada org bleh jer nak stdy satu malam...tp bila exam pgi esoknya...blank....dan ada org yg xleh stdy lewat2..so dye stdy awal...b4 exam is around the corner...(thats is stdy smart).ingatlah Allah ciptakan kita nie ada sebab...yela...tiap2 sesuatu tu mesti ada sbb ia diciptakan,sungguh Allah Maha Mengetahui apa yg tidak kita ketahui...kan?
cer try tgok surah Baqarah ayat 29 dan 30..hurm...so kita kena prcaya akan kebolehan diri....mmngla...prsaan JELES tu kat org yg lagi up dri kita akan ada,,,tp cer try turns that feeling in a positive way,,,,you'll know that its good actually...y? becaouse...you will know your weakness,and then you'll motivate yourself to do the best.
‎"utk prkara dunia...ingatlah org di bawah kamu....
akan tetapi....utk hal agama(ilmu) pula...pndanglah org yg brada di atas kamu...."

2nd! MASA SENGGANG(LAPANG). . .



jika kita stdy smart..yakni...ada prncangan bljr yg efisien....mstilah akan ada masa lebih before exam tu start..kan? so....prsoalannya....masa tu kita nak manfaatkan utk apa?? oke....kalau ana....i'll manage the precious time with lots of exercise,practices and gonna to meet lctrr,,,,but the most thing that we should do actually....is to BERIbadaH dgn sebnyaknya....
ada org nak dekat exam nie...buzy nak stdy jer memanjang....klaw nak sruh wat solat dhuha pon...ktanya xsmpat...pdahal,,,jika kita fikir semula...Allah beri dya msa senggang b4 exam tu sbnry nak dya stdy ker..nie x..pegi dok shopping la...mrayau2 ntah ke mana...alih2 dkt exam bru sibuk nak revise... ingatlah masa itu sgt brharga. dlm surah Asr pon da kta kan...sptutny dkt exam la kita bnykkn dekat dengan Pencipta kita iaitu Allah..sebab....Allah la yg menentukan segalanya...so..jika nak yg trbaik...minta kpdNya....dgn brdoa,solat sunat,bc al-Quran.

"jganlah beri alasan dalam mencari keredhaan Allah....sungguh jika Malaikat maut menjemputmu....pasti kita xdpt nak berikan alasan lagi utk menangguh masa kematian "

3rd! MEMBERI ANDA KESEDIAAN YG RAPI. . .
xprcaya?? btul....nie based on my experience la....hihi. tapi...for sure i said..its totally true! ana nak tnya....adakah org yg stdy last minute akan rasa senang(tenang)?? hurm...bagi ana...mungkin ada...tp mostly...mestilah mereka la golongan yg paling gelisah....(ana x mengIYAkan atau menIDAKkan),tapi itula kebiasaan yg sering brlaku...
so pntingnya stdy smart nie ialah...dpt mmberikan anda kesediaan yg rapi even xsmpai tahap 100%..jika nak topup sikit ilmu tu...blh jer...ye la..kdg2 kita tgh tnggu nak msuk exam hall..kawan kita ckp bnd yg kita xbca...kat situla blh kita topup sikit....

hurm..tu jer kot nak share,,,sorilah kalaw da salah silap...trkurang,trlebih bhasa,,,
apa yg ana nak conclude kat sini.....
"jgnlah kita mudah ptus asa pdahal blom pon brusha...
dan jgnlah kita brputus asa sdgkan kita telah berusha..."
sungguh Allah xsuka org yg brputus asa daripd RAhmatNya,,,kecuali org2 kafir.....(12:87)

dan satu lagi nak share.....
"jika kamu menolong agama Allah,nescaya Allah akan menolongmu" (47:7)


syukran jazilan......jihad fisabi lillah!